♥ Tuesday, September 04, 2007♥
I receive a Teachers' Day gift from my tutee ytd...it's a lil bear though i dun like soft-toys but it's her lil tot...i'm veri happy..=))
i think i really dun like a change of environment and i dun like to interact wif new ppl. but i dun like routine stuff either. i'm just weird. =((
i dun know how to start a conversation wif someone and i feel awkward...
sometimes i dun understand y some ppl say a long long story but then i see no link in what their saying...i think such circumstances happen esp when strangers meet. and u feel like tellin that person "no link" but because u have to put up a false front and pretend to laugh wif her. i dun like it. that's wad happen between this colleague and me. i really hate to sit near her during lunch because i always dun see a point in what's she trying to say and she beat abt the bush which makes it worse...
but sometimes i understand her kind intentions lah...someone has to talk lor...and i think not everyone can make a conversation interesting...and if nobody talk, the atmosphere becomes awkward...
sometimes i feel that i should just stick to my usual frens. this is wad happens when frens dun communicate for a long long time...when they dun update each other what's happening in each other's life, they lost their common frens they will lose their common topic...how sad...I have a long list of ppl on MSN and my phonebook which i probably neva talk to before or neva sms before...i neva knew how to start a conversation with them...but somehow i realise maybe a HOW ARE YOU sounds dumb to start a conversation but it leaves a warm feeling to other....just like how some of my IJC classmate would pop by occassionally to say HI. i mean during school days we might not have really talked and right now they are in army we actually do not have common topic cos they onli talked abt army life. or they might be just bored and finding someone to entertain them but I know at least they care and remember there's always you to entertain them...how sweet...=))
maybe we should all get some courage to say HI to our fellow frens and dun wait for each other to take initiative...if u dun take the initiative, and u realise nobody will...maybe we should stop complaining we have no frens...we do have a lot of frens but no one is willing to take the initiative to keep contact. and if we are going to continue like this we might just lose some of our old frens...
i PROMISED i WILL try to stop complaining abt how outings are hard to organise ...hahahaha...i realise how impt my frens are...even if they make me disappointed some times but i can't deny the fact they actually make my life colourful...=))) and since now atually i see ppl who are making effort to make friendships going, all the more i shouldn't give up!
<3 donuts
