♥ Wednesday, February 21, 2007♥
OH! i got a new job as PME. no more messing ard at home wif the little monster. but i seriously miss him at work! hehehe!
i'm certain i'm not able to work in the office. god, pls let me do sales next time. the whole day, i'm messing wif codes which i dun understand a single thing. i onli know i'm just typing and clicking. worst till my excel skills are like ----. my shifu has to teach and repeat the process 4 times before i fully understand some thing. i neva felt soo stupid in my whole life before. yes. the first 3 hours are like...oh i'm almost dozing off. no work. just sit there and wait. lunch was alright. sis's fren took care of me and bring me to AMK hub for lunch. after that was work and work. but lucky at least i'm not too dumb. 30 mails i finish 10 today. hehehe...wif the first 3 hours rotting and the 2 hours trying to handle excel. hehehe...which left me wif onli 3 hours.
fengs, u neva know how good your job is...able to provide u wif MSN. hehehe...mine dun even have windows messenger lor. and...all i do i type and click...sending mails. oh pls. i'm bored to death. can't even doze off becos i have to see the numbers and data carefully.
CNY wasn't really a happy occasion for me. firstly, he ruined the reunion dinner. i dun understand y every occasion like that his wife have to ruin it. i dun understand y he dun understand "yin shui si yuan" (did i use at the right place?) i dun understand y he dun understand fillial piety. and my grandma is sooo nice...cos the wife doesn't eat stuff that has gone thru praying rituals...she even saved a portion and cooked rice again specially for her. y she must make a big fuss over it. I'm fine wif her if she keep her mouth shut. y must she always spoil the happy family occasion.
somehow i feel that maybe having a steamboat together will be a better idea. less preparation and more eating together kind of feeling. but maybe my grandma is too old for that idea. i dunno y they abort it. ??
the onli thing for that day is drink alot. oh my god! neva did i drink sooo much. not even at clubs. red wine after white wine and white wine again after the red. heheheh...
the first day was basically alright. went to ah ma house. rot and rot. waiting to collect ang baos. somehow i feel that my family isn't that close anymore. the children came, play com and sleep. not much words being exchanged. We are sort of like strangers coming together. i dunno y. maybe at times crowding ard our nieces and nephews. somehow i dun like it. y the other family all the cousins can go movie together? can go out to drink together? gamble together?? this year is a boring year. maybe we have all grown up. but shouldn't we do more bonding? i love the warmth which a family gives but my family weren't able to provide me wif that.
in the evening, i went to watch NORBIT wif cousin, yx. onli the both of us. we are still quite close even though we onli meet like once or twice a year. Norbit is quite nice. a veri fast moving show. u dunno how the time pass in the cinema. sometimes u will look at the watch in the theatre but this show i guess u will neva cos i din. lol. it's a veri nice start, hmm...and nice ending. all i can say. but the show is dumb. but if u wan a luff i recommend u that show .
the second day i just stay at home to rest cos i know 3rd day i have to travel back to pasir ris. sooo i better stay at home to sleep. it was great. replenish my energy. all that i have lost. =)
3rd day, went to visit my ah ma. she wasn't well. feeling weak and looking all pale. she's also saying all the negative stuff. i always believe the old ppl shouldn't visit a doctor especially if they haven been visiting one often. trust me. cos when they are old, their body dun function well and when they visit the doctor, they found out all the spoilt parts. den they start to think abt the bad stuff. start to get "yu gan" abt their lives. and start to mumble all the names u dunno or some of the names of ppl she missed. i hope she will be well. she has yet to see alot of stuff. her grandchildren's marriage. her great grand children going to school. more has yet to come.
recently i like this song. mayday's song. it's called 天使.
你就是我的天使
保护著我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤
你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔
飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎么样
只要有你就会是天堂
像孩子依赖著肩膀
像眼泪依赖著脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖给我力量
像诗人依赖著月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使你是天使
你是我最初和最后的天堂
it's a veri sweet song. i simply love it. hehehe...it's really quite meaningful. hmm..somehow in the world we are really connected. hmm...we are the angels of our parents, our parents are like our angels where we depend on them for a home and for food when we are young. hmmm...i would love to lean on my parents and grandparents for a shoulder to rest on to cry or for getting a little warmth. frens are each other's angels. we depend on each other in school to work together and play hand in hand. angels are who we hoped to depend on and gave us the strength to go thru our daily lives. i hope i have an angel in my life. i have YET to find. but right now, my frens, my family and my jeron are my angels. they gave me warmth and make my day good when i'm sad. the strength i get to be stronger.
try this song. i strongly recommend. =)
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