♥ Wednesday, June 01, 2005♥
i am begining to ponder wad i want in life. after my JC wad i wanna do?? if i dun have a goal, i think i won't do well in JC. wad do i really want??
i wanna study arts and social science faculty. but like cindy say i need to specialise in something or else veri hard to get a job. life sciences?? i dunno leh... den mass com?? abit no use leh... i really got no goals at all lor.
ytd alvin yeo ask me "am i happy wif my life??" my answer is "no" in fact i dunno y i came. hehe...i read cindy's blog, she seems to be puzzled abt wad to do in life. i wanna help her...but i also dunno wad i wanna do. haiz...life without goals seems to be just aimless living. dad told me today, he says "u dun have a stand in life, u wanna go poly but u listen to your sister go JC, den u must study well." ya i dun have a stand. i should have gone to poly. den i dun have to suffer rite?? my maths sucks now. dun even understand a single thing. cannot do my tutorials. how lah?? den after holidays is summer test. die lah...seems to have a lot of time to study. but holidays to me seems to be play time. haiz...
today went checkup. my doctor seems to be so much older. last time i see him he is full of hair. NOW?? hehe...onli left 3 strand of hair. haiz...he was so cute today...heezz...he saw me he was like "oh my big patient!!" den i start to realise, i am the oldest there. lolx!! den he was asking me "where's my daddy?" i said outside. den he was like "u know at this age, the person outside waiting shouldn't be daddy." den we started laughing. he's so cute...after that went to buy durians for grandma. hehe...she seems so excited to see me. lolx. it's been long i haven go there lah. hehe...den heard that cousin was going for NS. wah!!! so fast.
so boring. nothing to do. cannot slp. can't do work. feeling not happy at all...die lah!!! GRRR!!!
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